Nearly 75 years after his suicide, Private Desmond Taylor of The Queen’s York Rangers (1st Americans) (RCAC) was remembered by members of Regiment in a ceremony at his graveside near St. John the Baptist Norway in the Beaches neighbourhood.
“His story is tragic but this small act of remembrance shines light on a forgotten history and is a
reminder that military leaders have an obligation to their soldiers,” said Lieutenant Colonel Phillip Halton, a former Commanding Officer of the Rangers who rediscovered this forgotten soldier.
“Recognizing the failure to safeguard his wellbeing may also be especially fitting during Pride Toronto.” Although there are many unknown details, Private Taylor probably killed himself after being outted as a homosexual.
In 1940, with Europe ablaze, the 27 year old enlisted in the Royal Canadian Air Force to become a pilot. Initially, things went well; he was noted by his superiors as being a “fine, clean cut type [with] above average intelligence.” The Board of Inquiry into his death indicates that while training, he read a psychology book which suggested that he write about incidents from his life that caused him anxiety. He did so, committing to paper his innermost thoughts and concerns – but he then lost his writings. Who found the papers and what they revealed about Private Taylor remains a mystery, but he soon found himself being harassed and perhaps blackmailed for being gay.
“We don’t know if Private Taylor, to use modern language, would have identified as gay,” said
Lieutenant Colonel Halton. “And the Board of Inquiry doesn’t identify who got their hands on his papers and what they did to put him under so much pressure.”
Perhaps unsurprisingly, Private Taylor soon struggled with his training, was discharged from the Air Force and returned home to Toronto. He must have been determined to do his part in the war against Fascism because, despite his earlier experience, he re-enlisted in early 1942 – this time in the army as a Queen’s York Ranger. But his reputation followed him up to Camp Borden, Ontario and, in only a few months, the harassment began anew. Again, his performance began to suffer.
On May 27th, Private Taylor was late for parade and given seven days of confinement to barracks as a punishment. Another soldier confined with him that evening was Private Frank Spirnyak, who testified at the Board of Inquiry, “[Private Taylor] has been my best friend since I came to Camp Borden and he considered me his best friend. He was quiet and friendly and like a brother to me.” Frank knew his friend was under great stress because of the lost papers, but evidently did not know how difficult the situation had become for him. The next morning, Private Taylor’s body was found on the bayonet assault course: he had shot himself through the chest with his service rifle.
From failure of leadership to full inclusion
“It’s not certain whether he asked the leadership of the Regiment for help, or if he did, what response he received,” said Lieutenant Colonel Halton. “But even without knowing this, two things are clear: Private Taylor was a Ranger who felt so much hopelessness that he took his own life; and that this is something that we should never accept.”
Private Taylor’s death did not receive much attention in 1942, and his name was lost to the Regiment until very recently. Given the number of Canadians who were killed during the Second World War, it is easy for one death to be forgotten. But Private Desmond Taylor is now remembered and, in addition to serving as a reminder, his story illustrates how far the modern Canadian Armed Forces has come. It’s not perfect, but Private Taylor would likely be comforted to know that sexual orientation is not a barrier to service and that harassment of any kind is a crime.
Photos: Revi Riabinski
The Queen’s York Rangers would like to thank Padre Mark Kalvaitis of the The Queen’s Own Rifles of Canada for helping out with the ceremony for Private Desmond Taylor.